Day 5 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
This one’s a hard one to write. And probably not an easy one to read.
There have been a few times I’ve thought about suicide seriously. All of them very recently. Why I’ve thought about it and how close I’ve come isn’t important. What’s important is I’ve always reached a point, whether it’s with a box of pills in my hand or just lying in bed wondering, where I’ve realised how much pain it would cause. My family would always wonder if it was their fault, if they could’ve stopped it. My friends would always remember ‘that girl that topped herself.’
Sure, I wouldn’t have to live with the guilt, but I still couldn’t cause that much pain to everyone close to me, ever. So I find that photo very fitting - (i got the picture from saddest-summer)
If by chance i do have a follower that ever finds themself contemplating suicide, please remember that someone always cares. Even if it doesn’t feel like it. And stop and read this http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
